Day 17: Friday July 11, 2014

I woke up at 1 today for the first time in a week, I believe. I didn’t really do much. I transferred quotes I saved from books into my notes section of my ipod. Then I finished reading Every Day. And wow, it was awesome. Then I tried finishing some Chem stuff but I found out that it’s not due till Monday so whew! And that was pretty much my day. Nothing eventful. Just chilling around, much needed, haha.

Day 16: Thursday July 10, 2014

I woke up at 8. Then I watched some TV because I didn’t think the instructor would come until 9. But around 8:40 I looked out the window and he was there. Plus he called me at 8:25 but I didn’t hear my cell phone ring.

Left the house and started driving. Drove around from 9-11. Drove in, out, and around the DMV. Then at 11, we went to pick up his other student who was also going to be taking the DMV exam on Thursday. They dropped me off at McDonalds. There were elderly men and women and a child sitting upstairs and talking. I even took a short nap. I spent 2 hours sitting there, waiting. I went on Instagram and Snapchat and tried opening Safari but it kept crashing, sigh. I eventually bought a buffalo ranch McChicken for lunch. I left Mickey D’s around 12:30 and walked to the Korean food market. I browsed around, just looking at stuff but I got pretty bored. I was going to buy some banana milk but I wanted to save money. So I left and walked around the neighborhood. I passed by a car place where mechanics were fixing cars and cleaning cars. I got scared and walked into a small plaza with a market. I browsed around there, making it look like I was looking to buy something but everything there was overpriced. I left and walked back toward McD’s. I thought about going to the DMV but I was afraid of the instructor and his student seeing me walking out in the day with no one by my side so I walked back to McD’s. I waited there for another hour, sitting on this ledge with a window slightly protruding from the fast food restaurant’s dining room and ordering area. He finally came around 2:30 saving me from boredom because my ipod’s battery died on me.

At the DMV, we waited for another hour because the car line was pretty long. I eventually fell asleep in the car because it was hot and comfortable sitting in the car. Sleeping made me less nervous now that I think back to it. But when the tester came, I became nervous. He was pretty nice about the entire interaction, though. I kept thinking, oh, he must be tired of this by now. He looked tired and irritated. We took the 2nd route the instructor showed me before. When he told me to stop and pull over to reverse, I did but he kept telling me to make the car straight, and I kept thinking in my head that the car was straight, so I just reversed and kept the wheel at 90 degrees. He was so frustrated by me and said what did I not understand about it. Later he said make the wheels straight but I swear he said make the car straight. I was not able to comprehend what he meant by that. But luckily, he did not dock points off for that, whew. I didn’t want to argue with my tester and make him mad enough to mark me off or anything. He could have said, now reverse and that would have made me fix the wheel. By the end of it, I almost hit some pedestrians, I looked around for too long, I didn’t scan around enough, and I was too cautious. But I passed. I passed! I was so happy, despite that one moment of confusion. 

The instructor drove me home. I was really tired. And it’s sad that they’re going to use my photo from my permit. I was 17 when that photo was taken. Sigh, wish I could retake it.

TLDR; I spend most of the entire day driving and finally took my driving test.


M83 - Reunion

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This is the best thing i’ve ever heard

My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade - 0:00
Green Day - Good Riddance - 0:12
Panic! at the Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies - 0:24
blink-182 - What’s My Age Again? - 0:34
Jimmy Eat World - The Middle - 0:46
We The Kings - Check Yes Juliet - 0:46
Third Eye Blind - Graduate - 0:56
All Time Low - Weightless - 0:58
All Time Low - Dear Maria Count Me In - 1:07
Switchfoot - Meant to Live - 1:18
Fall Out Boy - Sugar We’re Going Down - 1:07
My Chemical Romance - I’m Not Okay (I Promise) - 1:29
Boys Like Girls - Thunder - 1:40
30 Seconds to Mars - Kings and Queens - 1:50
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue - 1:59
Relient K - Be My Escape - 2:00
Relient K - Sadie Hawkins Dance - 2:03
Simple Plan - I’d Do Anything - 2:14
Paramore - Misery Business - 2:15
Rise Against - Savior - 2:25
Sum 41 - Fat Lip - 2:33
My Chemical Romance - Teenagers - 2:34
Fountains of Wayne - Stacy’s Mom - 2:43
All American Rejects - Gives You Hell - 2:51
blink-182 - Feeling This - 2:53
Lit - My Own Worst Enemy - 3:08
Sum 41 - In Too Deep - 3:09
The Cab - One of THOSE Nights - 3:37
Relient K - High of 75 - 3:37
blink-182 - I Miss You - 3:37
Paramore - That’s What You Get - 3:48
AFI - Miss Murder - 4:03
Good Charlotte - Dance Floor Anthem - 4:04
Cute Is What We Aim For - Curse of Curves - 4:18
30 Seconds to Mars - Closer to the Edge - 4:30
A Day to Remember - All I Want - 4:45
Mayday Parade - Jamie All Over - 4:57
Fall Out Boy - Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - 4:57
Cartel - Say Anything (Else) - 5:22
Taking Back Sunday - MakeDamnSure - 5:37
Rise Against - Audience of One - 5:47
Fall Out Boy - Sugar We’re Going Down - 5:48

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Day 15: Wednesday July 9, 2014

Dad woke me up at 9. I grabbed an onion bao and left the house. I finally got on the bus at around 10 but there was traffic. While I was on the freeway (reading my book), I called the dental office and told the lady I’d be late. That was at 10:30. I told her I’d be there at 11:30. I fell asleep right after. Got off the bus and took the M. The bus was fairly empty. I fell asleep again. I arrived at the dental imaging center. The receptionist was also the dental person taking photos of my teeth. It was just him and me. He was really talkative. He kept going on and on about money and how sad it was crossing the bridge from Oakland because more and more people had nicer cars than him as he crossed the freeway. We moved onto another topic (also related to money) and he kept saying how Asians make a lot of money. He then moved onto religion and how Buddhists tend to be more greedy because he read about something somewhere that this radical Buddhist and his followers were attacking Muslims for money? I don’t remember the exact details of our conversation but that was the gist of it. I really wanted him to stop talking (because I wanted to leave) but I was too shy to speak up about it. I realize he was trying to make conversation and all but it could have been better. The only part I enjoyed was when I got a Scooby-Doo sticker. All the other stickers were small and about animals that weren’t that cute. And I wanted the sticker to be big so it was worth my while. The other good thing was that it only took about less than 15 minutes. I was in and out and done. Hopefully there won’t be a need to go back and waste more money on that place. I’ve been there like, 4 times already, sigh.

I walked all the way back to St. Francis square (?) and waited for the metro. The K came so I got on and found a seat and fell asleep again. I went to Mom’s place and she gave me food to eat. Then we left and took the 12 where I fell asleep soon after. The place was very nice. I took a short nap in the office chair until the lady introduced herself as a counselor to us. She was nice but the information was boring. I fell asleep while she talked and Mom shoved me awake each time I fell asleep. How am I going to survive lectures in college… Well considering I fell asleep in most of my AP classes’ lectures too… The future doesn’t seem too bright for me right now.

After the meeting, Mom and I parted ways. I went to Juma, walking a whopping 4 blocks. It wasn’t that bad though but it was hot and I wore a sweater today. Sigh. I arrived at the office at 3:45 but Andrea was in a meeting with another youth so I got a bag of those salty but yummy Hawaiian chips and whipped my ipod out and went on Instagram. Andrea led me into the meeting room after she finished her one-on-one. I started asking her questions about financial aid and more. She gave me a lot of insightful advice and tips. I made sure I wrote down these things this time because last time I just listened and I forgot the information afterward. We finished our one-on-one at around 6 because I had a lot of burning questions. I almost missed the 8AX, barely getting on. It was empty too so I got lucky. I had my headphones on, sitting in the very front of the bus with no one to my left or right (well there was a person to my left one seat down but I don’t count her). The bus was fairly temperate. As soon as I shut my eyes, I fell asleep. For the fifth time today, I fell asleep on the bus.

TLDR; I fell asleep a lot on the bus.

Day 14: Tuesday July 8, 2014

I woke up at 8 and barely got on the bus at 8:30. I made it to Mom’s place at 9:10. I followed Petra to her office at Coleman. She taught my how to do the paperwork which was easy —- hole punch paper and organize it. Simple task. I did that for two hours straight. I bumped into an acquaintance when I went to wash my hand (I got a paper cut on my left middle finger). It felt a little bit uncomfortable since I was pleasantly surprised to see her while it seems like she wasn’t? Or maybe she didn’t want to acknowledge me or something but eh, I tried to make the best out of that situation. Smiles all the way, awkward shrug and point and made a mad dash to get away. Perfect escape plan ha ha ha. I continued my paperwork until 12.

We left the building and I ate lunch with Mom. I left around 1 to go walk around in the city. I found a nice spot and took some photos. I caught a hummingbird drinking nectar from some nice flowers. At first I didn’t recognize the sound they made and when I saw them, I immediately snapped photos of it. It’s so tiny and cute. But I saw it poop while it was looking for nectar so I laughed to myself. The people around me in my area didn’t pay attention to the beautiful creature that was right before my eyes. It was so adorable and cute and tiny. At first when I noticed it I didn’t take any photos but when I realized I should, it looked like it was about to fly away. So I let out an “aw” and it came back to the flower. So I quickly took several shots of the small bird. It came closer to another flower near me (but still sort of far away, like two chairs away from me) and that’s when I noticed that it took a poo-poo. I couldn’t catch it pooing in action or PIA but I will laugh about it whenever I think back to that moment. I left the building at 1:50 ish and made it back to the office at 2:22.

Mom and I went up to the roof of her job and I snapped HELLA photos of the surrounding. I had 2 bars of battery left but I enjoyed that moment of photography. It was amazing being that high but the roof felt unstable but it held our weights. We left to go to Chinatown and picked up my contacts. So expensive… But hey, 415 pairs of contacts, wheeee! A year and a month’s worth of plastic for my eyes.



While I’m off chasing my own dreams
Sailing around the world
Please know that I’m yours to keep

ugh this

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Day 13: Monday July 7, 2014

Much anger today

Feeling like a ghost in the middle of a crowded room.
I’m alone, a stranger in my own town.

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I’d cross the whole world

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Day 12: Sunday July 6, 2014

Not a bad day —- far from it but too lazy to type up everything since today was such a simple day.

6 Good Things:

  1. Parents: For dealing with my moods or whenever I get irritated and explode.
  2. Food: Self explanatory
  3. Money: Was able to get my fav poster, whoop! I need more, sigh.
  4. Life
  5. My vision: Life may get blurry at times but when everything is clear, I am very thankful for being able to see.
  6. Unexpected gifts
Day 11: Saturday July 5, 2014

I went to SJ to visit my family. It was very humid once we reached my family’s house. The dog went crazy, hahah. Then we went to find the place I wanted to eat but they no longer sold the type of food I wanted to eat so we left to go the mall. I ate thai food (ugh so good). And then we left to go to Walmart. I wanted so many things but couldn’t get much. Then we went to shop for food and stuff and Ross and came back to HQ to put stuff away. I ate some good che. Then we went to go eat at Sweet Tomato, sooooo good. Don’t really like salad but that place wasn’t as bad as I expected. Went into Target. Left Target to go back to Walmart and finally went home. Very good day; felt a little burdened by family expectations but had a lot of fun.


In Too Deep | Sum 41

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awkward goodbye // athlete 

Day 10: Friday July 4, 2014

Happy 4th of July, America.

Woke up at noon today. Then we went to Richmond but the place we wanted to eat at was closed. We went into CVS because I wanted to change into my leggings. The worker was nice and let me into the bathroom to change. Mom bought some stuff for her checkup and we left. Then we went to eat at My Tofu House. Mom was super irritated but we eventually ate after the long wait. I actually watched the soccer game because I’m not into soccer that much but it was an interesting game. Brazil vs Columbia though. Uh, left the restaurant and went to Chinatown. I went to buy the $1 poster of Sailor Moon but there was a big group of guys surrounding the place. I felt intimidated and embarrassed for buying Sailor Moon stuff. I felt like a geek, ugh. But I endured it and finally got a poster. They were really nice about everything and even helped look for more. I felt so bad but thankful for their kindness and help. Then I went to find Mom. Spent 2 hours waiting for her to get her weave done. I played Republiqe, which is pretty interesting. Sucks that you have to buy episodes 2-5 to continue playing. I enjoyed the game but once I finished it, I deleted it. I was going to play Dead Trigger 2 but it needed wifi connection and I was too afraid and lazy to go ask the hairdresser for the password, lol. It was so cold in Chinatown once we left the hair salon. Chilly cold, brr.

Welp, that was my day. Pretty chill overall. :)